This is the Diary Of The Man Behind The Mask.......

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Back. After a struggling semester in school and having waves of obstacles faced in terms of family, financially, friendship and relationship wise during this period, i realised that sometimes things in this world is so out of control. It's like when you think you are actually in control of things but ultimately it'll happen eventually. Perhaps that is what we call fate. Then again, fate is not what we should resent to, but we should be more epathetic with the surroundings and people, knowing ownself better, then see it through all different outcome of matters(not just negative outcome) and better to deal with life. Sick as I am towards all the same old sh*t that keeps coming back, i guess it never stops if both parties learn to be in one another's shoes. Maybe i'm really getting tired when no one really understand me. Anyway saw this dvd 'butterfly effect' and i felt it's quite a good show. Imagine if you really have the power to alter your past, which part would u choose to alter? Maybe if we stick it as the way it is wouldn't it be better? I guess life's like this when we experienced it the 'unwanted' way so that we can better reflect ourselves in the future.

Bambino D 1:46 am

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

It's nice to blog again. At least i get to say what i felt deep down in my heart without hiding. You may ask 'why hide?', well people hide because they don't wanna show their everything, making them feel naked about it and hence exposing their weaknesses. For me, maybe, sometimes it's because i simply think too much in other people's shoes whereby i fear the impact of the truth may be on others as it did to me, or to vividly visualize the undesirable outcome. That day i was chatting with god-sis(mich) online & she told me that she saw my pics on her* blog recently. So i decided to take a look and happened to know more. I hope that 'story' about cancer wasn't real coz i know the pain of cancer since it happened to one of my closest person, but miraculously healed. Even then, medication still haunts him and it hurts me as much as it does to him. Anyway i've a story that i wrote to tell and it's called 'bus-trip'. Oh ya, I've just coloured my hair again. Be sure to drop by my memorial of timesoon to see my new look. Cheerios.

BUS-TRIP

Astro is a young lad who boarded this special bus called the 'L' bus. This bus is unlike any buses, because it brings people to different destinations in their life. Of course, like SBS & trans island, it's got different buses numbers of its own bringing people to different places, but in this case it's not important what bus number he took. During the bus ride, he met different people in all kinds of form, shape & sizes. Then, Astro met this girl called Tinklebell, and they had a great time knowing another. As time goes by, Astro hopes that Tinklebell would eventually be the one to alight with him at the same destination in his life. But soon after Tinklebell alights the bus to board another bus as she found out the bus does not lead her to the stop where she wanted to be at. Astro of course was very upset, hoping that one day perhaps she may return to the same bus with him. But things don't worked out that way, and felt that the bus-trip was a painful journey. He had told himself that love was just a lie which people chose to believe. Then after sometime, a girl named Blythe boarded the bus and they became friends. They shared many things in common, experiences in the past and dreams in the future, both person are so uncannily similiar to one another, just like a mirror image. As time goes by, Astro picked things up again and learned to fall in love again. As for Tinklebell, she realised the importance of someone dear after losing it, sometime wishes that the hands or the clock maybe go counter-clock wise and back to where she was still in the same bus as he does.

The moral of the story is life is like a bus trip, and everyone has their destiny to embark on in life. The bus is like a medium to represent the path we took in life and the other passengers in the bus symbolizes the people we get to meet up in the path we took. People come and go in life and eventually we still need to carry on because the bus never comes to a complete stop. It's human nature that we only appreciate things more upon losing it as we may at times take things for granted. So appreciate what's around us now and never take it for granted as we never know what come after.

Eventually it does not matter who's right or wrong. It's about what we've learned in life and i hope anyone whose reading this will also learn something meaningful out of it. Alrite time to sleep now, got class at 9am. Duhz.

Bambino D 8:00 pm

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Ladies & gentlemen it's been a long long time since i've blogged. life was a roller coaster ride for me during this half a year. Back then series of events took place, nevertheless i've overcome the storm. Firstly i need to apologise to most of my friends whom seen me online yet i was to busy to reply. Truly sorry. Currently i'm studying full time in SIM, and i can tell u back to be a student has it's good and bad. The good is school life makes a person feels young and has everything to look forward to. Well the bad is projects and tests are a KILLER. Anyway i've quit from Newsroom Bar since last year and i'm currently jobless again. So if anyone who's got a job offer please let me know ya? Also I;ve updated my memorial of time & sorrow of creations, previously the pictures were really distorted but thankfully it's fixed. Do drop by and take a look ya. Alritey, time to go do my stuff now.

Bambino D 4:15 am

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Wow it's been a week since i blogged. Haha anyway I've just updated my memorial of time & sorrow of creations. New pictures and songs were added. By the way the tag-board is not shared among the other two of my blogsite anymore. That's for my blog news update. Hmm let's see where shall i start. My hair colour seems to be fading off and now i looked like a golden lion. Just quit my job yesterday because gonna start school next week but i called my friend yesterday saying that he with another friend of mine who's gonna next January instead. Damn should have enrolled into the January intake with them. But anyway my friend said that i can try asking them if it's possible to put me for the later intake with them. Come to think of it isn't such a bad idea. So much so on my studies and work. My dad just went for operation. Hurts me everytime to see him at his age going thru all the pain. Hope he'll recover soon enough because everyone at home is praying for him. Oh ya, that day I went for the job interview at Newsroom Bar the boss was damn picky man. Desperately needed staffs yet still trying to show that he doesn't need it. Ladies & gentlemen if you're reading this and if you got a good temp job offer please notified me alright? Okay guess i stop here. Time to bath and go out.

Bambino D 6:10 am

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Yes I've a couple of times to update. Firstly I went to colour my hair. Did a highlight with two tones. I guess a change in my image does helps a bit in my recovery. Took some photos of myself new image today. You can check out them out at my World Of Memories: Memorial Of Time. Another thing to update is my third site is finally completed. It's dedicated for my workpieces i.e. songs i compose, drawings i did and love stories i wrote to be stored in there. Most of them as you can see is created out of my emotions, more of my sorrows. That's how i came out with the title. You can click down here at World Of Sorrows: Sorrow Of Creations or just visit my links at the bottom left stated My World column. I also just wrote a new song today. It can be found in there. So much so, now only left with the new stories i've yet completed. Probably just gotta wait a few more days before I'm done. By the way the song playing now it's called 'Kissing A Fool'. Couldn't find George Micheal version though. Alright, guess this is how i spend my Saturday.

Bambino D 12:45 pm

Thursday, September 16, 2004

It's been days i blogged. So where should i start? Oh ya, firstly got my reply from SIM and confirmed i've secured a place there. School will commence on the 1st of October and i'll have to quit my current job now so as to coordinate with my school timetable schedule. Now gotta settle my own school fees problem though. Most probably I'll go back to nightlife jobs again. Currently also busy with constructing my other blogsite and finishing up my stories. Realised my little god sis Michelle's having some emotional upsets in her relationship. Poor thing hope she'll be fine soon. Seems like this month got quite a lot of cases already though. Anyway it's good to be back as single for me at least i've realised i'm not the bastard in the relationship. Seems like my guess was damn accurate. If some bitch can't understand my situation then too bad like what my friends said I deserves better. Anyway I heard this piece of music by Mason Williams, Classical Gas. Very nice tune. Heard Vanessa Mae playing it with violin before though. I've decided to master this piece of music in two weeks time. Hmm will i be able to? Haha hopefully i do. Wanted to my background music to that but i couldn't find it so i chose Jet's Look What You've Done. Very nice and meaningful. Almost forgotten to tell that i've added new pictures in my world of memories: memorial of time too. Do check it out. For now time to sleep.

Bambino D 4:54 pm

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Spend the whole day constructing my new blog. Before go we into that I've change this blog title 'Six Strings' to 'Behind The Mask'. Reason is simple. Last week my collegue came to tell me though I'm always smiling but she's knows I'm hiding my wearies. I got taken aback quite abit coz i never realised my mask is breaking up. Everyday every where every now and then everyone is wearing a mask. She's wearing one, you're wearing one, I'm wearing one. Some are even wearing more than one. Not because they want but It's a form of protection against others and sometimes it helps to see things better. In this place of my own, I can take out my mask and be my own self again. Hence that's the reason of changing it. I've change my song too coz i'm afraid the music is getting bored. Back to the topic of my new blog. It's found under at my world section at world of memories: memorial of time. This new blog is allocated for all my pictures taken whether with my friends, alone or just scenary to be placed inside. It's gonna served as a musem of the trails in my life. The background of the blog is taken by me way long time ago. Hope you'll do drop by to give me your support. Thanks.

Bambino D 4:14 pm